I am so discusted with myself and my spirit of grumbling,impatience, complaining and doubt. I have repented to our God, hoping and trusting that He will forgive me once again for my numerous numerous sins and short-givings and now I ask you my brothers and sisters to pray for me.
In my return home from my appointment my return trip did not go remotely as I had planned, my train was over an hour and a half late and I was panicked. Generally I get off the train and take a cab or city bus (which are on strike at the moment) to the intercity bus station and then I have about a half hour until my bus leaves for the small town I live in. Well that was not going to be a possibility.
Before even asking or checking in with friends I was worried.
What is it about my fickle, feeble mind that I cannot keep it into my head not to worry, that there is a PLAN to everything!! It is so frustrating to me, and the fact that annoys me the most is that I KNOW I am spiraling! I know what I am doing and while I tell myself NOT to it seems like I am being sucked in, everytime. EVERYTIME!!!
What IS that?
I am so filled with gratitude that everything seemed to fit together, like they always do whether or not it is in accordance with MY plan or not.
When will I throw my PRIDE out the window?
ME ME ME ME
I want my life to be about HIM!
HIM HIM HIM!!!
I throw away my will and cling to the one that chose me.
He is so good and I praise Him.
Thank you for your continuing prayers for me.
Soli Deo Gloria